Hey, it's been a while..again. lol. I just wrote to update on my life. It's been going "pretty awesome" (lol) lately, can't complain. 120 people that were in the band just got to Hawaii. I'm really hoping they're having a fun time, I doubt they WON'T. Goodness, they're going to PEARL HARBOR!!! and actually playing there. I didn't go obviously..and about 17 other people didn't either. So there's going to be about 17 of us in band class next week lol. That'll be soooo fun!! ^^ Hmmm...I dunno what else to talk about Oooo I like my title lol. It's nice. yeah...I got my own photobucket thing (xXxI_BelievexXx) and it's FULL of icons. Like any kind of icon and I'll have it. I don't have Harry Potter though...or abercrombie and fitch stuff....or....ok nvm, I don't have everything -.- I'm going to try and write as often as I can...but I can't promise anything, k? Is that alright? I hope so. -Ria

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I feel so horrible. I feel heartbroken....I want to die. I called Justin's house to get his grandma's phone number because that's where he's staying for a while. I called him and we talked for a few minutes. He sounded so bored...when he was told it was me he didn't seem to react in any special way. Just a normal everyday call. We talked and he seemed so bored...so unwilling. I asked him if I was being annoying he said no. I apologized for walking out on him on Friday, he didn't remember but forgave me anyway. I asked him if he had fun on Friday. This was the question I was afraid to ask. I hoped he'd mention my not being included in his night. Hoped he'd mention he'd liked for us to have talked more than we did. He'd had the most fun he'd had all year... It was great...it was fantastic...and I wanted to cry. I was so upset. He didn't even hesitate. He didn't seem to regret any of what he had just said. I was hurt. And of course I was jealous. I was scared, too. Some other girl made him happy. The happiest he'd been in a long while. OF COURSE I WAS JEALOUS. OF COURSE I WAS SCARED. Who wouldn't be? But it's ok...tomorrow during Study Hall I'm going to tell him. I'm going to let him know what's been troubling me. Because no one person can fix a two person thing. and to add on to my hurt, Andy's thinking about joining the Army. It becomes harder for me to think Andy doesn't like making me cry. lol. I know he doesn't do it on purpose though....at least....I hope.... I participated in the MDA Telethon today!! It was fun. Even though I only got one call, it was enjoyable. We had little clappy hand things that we got to make noise with and Mr. Barker and Mr. Parthun started a paper ball fight. Jeff won a competition against Catholic Central. Each school had to try and get the most people to call in the name of that school. Only Jeff alumni called. lol, it was an obvious win. 5-0. I saw Jeff Beumel at Spencer's today. His hair looks so different. Then this guy that goes to our school said hi to me and Marisela when he walked past us. We recognized him and the girl he was with, but we didn't even know his name. I bought these folders at Hot Topic. They're black with pretty beautiful fairies in the front. I'm using one for Japanese class ^^. I'm done talking to you. lol, bye! Hope everything goes well tomorrow....:deep breath.: -Ria P.S. I tried on this pretty perfume at Hot Topic and I sprayed it on my wrist. I took a shower and it still smells yummy! ^^. I'm thinking about buying it. Yumm Yumm!! lol

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I woke up today and it was about to be noon. Before I sat down to eat breakfast my mom got a call from a cousin of hers. He was living in Indiana 2 hours away from where we live. She was delighted to hear that and told us we would be going to pick him up and bring him with us as soon as possible. We all took showers and left (Jessica not included of course. She's much too special to go.) She went to the movies while the rest of us spent hours looking for my uncle's location. It was fun. When we got home Jessica hadn't arrived yet. When she got home I noticed she had make-up on. I know she's probably old enough to now (turning 13 tomorrow) but I wasn't allowed to wear it until I was about to turn 15 and I hate how she is able to do everything I'm restricted to until a specific time whenever she wants. I hate it and it gives me reason to not listen to my parents' rules and abide to them. She says she's going to get beat up in school on Tuesday...I hope she does. I'm sorry for thinking wrongly like this...it's not my fault...it's this week's. Justin didn't pay any attention to me during the second half of the game yesterday. I almost cried. But he won't find out. I feel bad for walking out on him yesterday when he said he couldn't call me this weekend. I understand why he didn't talk to me though. He was making a friend of Rachael. I would want to make a friend too. But not with her. I don't understand how people don't see that she's a complete show off. Always answering a question that was never aimed at her. Trying to get on everyone's good side and be thought of as some kind of great role-model-like upperclassmen that will never be forgotten. She's also annoying. She likes to give people wrong impressions of her. Niki and I rarely talk to her so she shouldn't be talking to Niki's mother like we're unseperable. Of course when most of you read this you will think I've gone insane and have lost complete control of my personal thoughts. No, I'm fully aware of what I'm talking about. I've known her long enough to know what she's like...and hate it. I just hope everyone who's her friend now either doesn't get annoyed by her or has chosen to be her friend of their own will. Anyway, I got $50 from my dad today and on Monday I'm going with Marisela to the mall and waste my ill-earned money. I'm going to buy Justin something to show him how much I love him. We're finally going to church tomorrow after like a month. Now I wonder how long it'll be until I'm able to go to confession. Seeing as how I'm going to be having football games and competitions on Fridays and Saturdays from now on... I need batteries for my CD Player. I have a used-battery collection of all the batteries it's used up. It's a plentiful collection any collector would be proud of. It's 11:30 pm...tomorrow I will wake up at 10 and close my eyes again and think of Justin. Then I'll get up and think of him again. I can't wait till Saturday...most likely next Saturday actually...maybe something will happen. Who knows. Maybe nothing will. It's nice to wonder.

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Tomorrow is the marching band's first football game this year. I can't wait!! I'm going to sit next to Justin and Marisela and Kelly and Shantina and poor Jorge is going to have to sit all the way up on top with the rest of the brass. He had me give all my change to the Katrina victim people and then he took my pop tart and my french fries!! I was so thirsty during marching band after school today! Seriously, as soon as we got in I got a drink from the drinking fountain and I drank quite a bit lol. Then I got home and drank what was left over from an orange juice carton thing. And even then I wasn't quenched. So I drank from some Guava juice thing that worked just the same. I don't know...I just all of a sudden got thirsty I guess lol. I'm going to be working for this telethon we're having here in Lafayette(?) this Monday. Niki Nikita ^^ is taking me. We're supposed to meet at Purdue at 9:30 am for an informational meeting that will include a 15-20 min. long video that will tell us what to do. We're just going to be answering donation calls and writing down the doner's info. We're going to be on tv. weee! lol. Do we get payed for doing that? It would be really nice if we did. I don't think so though. I don't really know where at Purdue we're supposed to meet or how long we're going to be working for the people. Do we have school that day? Hope so...so I can miss a black day!! lol. Oh I have to tell you guys during Chemistry class (we did a lab today where we had a salt and sand mixture and we had to separate the salt from the sand, it was really quite fun, but it took me a while and I was one of the last ones to be finished) I went to the bathroom and when I got to one there were these two Mexican chicks (Don't think I'm going to be saying something mean or that I'm talking about them because I'm racist. I mean, I can't really be racist against my own race.) and when they saw me come in they started laughing. I don't know if they were laughing at me(which would be very likely) or if they were laughing because maybe they had been about to do something (like drugs maybe? you never know) and they were almost caught. What else happened? Yesterday during marching band there was a red truck parked right in the middle of the grid we work in. I would have LOVED for someone to have taken a picture of all of us in our concert arcs with the truck right in the middle of everybody. Mr. Barker eventually had it arranged for the truck and this other car at the corner to be towed to some other place where the driver would have a hard time finding his wrongly-parked vehicle. And today there were no perturbing cars! ^^ I get to wear my UNIFORM tomorrow!! I'm so excited. It's the red "party" uniforms, but they're uniforms!! They zip up from the front so no one will be able to 'do' each other.......or will they? lol. And we get to use our boxes!! our glove and yummy thing boxes!! the ones were we have our....OUR SHAKOS!!! I just remembered them ooooo and the plumes!!! I can't wait!! I seriously would LOVE to have a shako for myself. You know...one I could keep? Anyway, the band moms tend to put little goddies in the boxes whenever something special happens...like our first football game, our first competition(and every competition following that first), our lasts....ahhhhh. I can't wait till we get to fill the hallway up with all the band posters!! the hallway just seems so empty without them. The freshman and new marchers will LOVE it!! I think I've written all I have to write about. I'm learning a lot of characters in Japanese. Most of them the teacher hasn't taught us yet lol. I just really wish she would teach us how to write it already so we could have some homework!!! ARRRR!!! The gas is really going up. It's like $3.50 and they're supposed to be going up!! like by this weekend it'll be at $5!!! I'm so glad I don't have a car!! Ok, yeah..I'm done now. BYEZ!!!

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I'm so sorry I haven't updated in such a horribly long time... like forever!!! but anyway here's my post for today. I'm so sorry I haven't been on regularly, I've just been so caught up with, gee, I dunno...a life?!?! lol. Let's see...the first week of school is officially over. It's gone so awesome!! I love my Japanese class (for my name I'm thinking either Aiko[cuz it sounds pretty] or Miki[after my best friend from 7th grade]) and my Drawing class. I have Ms. Funcheon and she's awesome and we're already starting our first project and it's going to turn out so beautiful...the picture i picked looks fairly easy and logical. It's a girl with pale white skin and dark black hair and a thing on her head that looks like the thing they put on your head when they put you on the electric chair....lol. Kelly called it morbid...pretty....but morbid lol. My contacts are bothering me so much...I'm changing to a new pair tomorrow though..thank goodness. The marching band's first uniformed performance is in a week and I'm so ecstatic about it!! The new sets we learned today were so nice lol. they seemed so fun to me...not the movements themselves, but my sets. yeah, I"m weird like that. the last set we go to is like 16 counts and I have to move about 1 step infront of me....It's so much harder to get there than I thought. I keep making the smallest steps possible...but they always turn out being too big!! I'm getting the hang of it though ^^. Oh and when we were just learning that set I got to my spot and Sarah asks me what number I am and I say F10 (Cuz that's my number lol) and she's like you're supposed to be over there and points to some other direction and I ask Am I really? and I go to it and she says no. lol it was so funny. I think my eyes are drying out...lol. Lydia lent me this Kill Hannah CD (For Never and Ever) it's really good!! My favorites so far ar Kennedy and Raining All the Time. Oh after band I asked Justin if he knew what Sunday was (it's our anniversary..last time I asked he forgot..I felt so bad..if he forgot this time I dunno what I'd do) and he did. he remembered. ^^ I was so happy. I was smiling all the way home, lol. He makes me happy. Today was picture day at school. wewt. We got to pick partners for chemistry and I didn't really know anybody except for some people from band who I don't really talk to so I didn't have one. Some girl and I paired up in the end though. Oh...on my way to Study Hall today I passed by this hallway with lockers and this guy was going to his and I was in his way and I'm right infront of him and he says "Maria, Maria" and I just stare back at him and then walk on. I didn't know the guy!! Never even seen him. You know what I'll be right back.. I"m switching to my glasses...they're really bothering me (my contacts) brb. Goodness, couldn't find the link to this and thought I had deleted it or something...ooo that would have been bad. Yeah...I love my Japanese and Drawing classes to death...and well...I think that's all i will be talking about today. Hope I get to see Justin during the weekend...or atleast talk to him on the phone. I can't call him seeing as he moved in with his grandma and I don't have his grandma's number. Byez!! Talk to y'all later!! I LOVE YOU!!! -MxBxL

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I called Heather yesterday as soon as I was all ready to get picked up by her and no one answered. I called about an hour later and her dad answered saying she had gone shopping. He said he would tell her to call back when she got back..she didn't call back and I was never picked up by anybody. Anyway, I spend most of yesterday doing nothing. We went to the mall and I saw a couple of people I know but didn't necessarily like. Umm, oh yeah I saw Ali and a family friend. Umm...we went to church today and for once I didn't feel like I was near sleeping ^^. Can't wait till tomorrow, I'll finally have a reason to wake up again. On Tuesday I finally get to get my books!! I actually think I'm gonna go tomorrow and see if they'll let me get them. I can't wait till school starts!! Ah, yes and on Tuesday I also have a doctor appointment so I'm gonna have to leave band camp early..which, I really DON'T want to do seeing as how the preview is on Thursday and we're going to be rushing to learn as much as we possibly can and any missed time is frowned upon if not by the band by me. lol, I dunno, I just can't wait until I get my books and schedule!! grrr I REALLY hope I am able to get my stuff tomorrow, if not...I will suffer for another 24 hours :sigh.: La la la la la...I don't think I have much more to say...yey, preview. Silas called me today and said he's giving me the Mezmerize CD by System of a Down on the first day of school XD I'm so happy. He'd called and asked " I can't remember the name to this song can you tell me?" and he puts it on and it's BYOB and I just get happy and he laughed. It was pretty funny. But then I hung up because I much rather watch Brat Camp than talk to him lol. We might have the same japanese class together lol He, Savyon and me..I really hope so..that would be a REALLY fun Japanese class MWAHAHAHAHA lol. Right now I am realizing I have too many extra classes that I'm going to be having to take during my next two summers so I'm going to decide on how to organize everything and then ask my counselor if there's any chance I could take a class instead of SRT err.....Study Hall. I haven't listened to Three Days Grace in a while....it's on the radio and I dunno...I'm just...remembering. Well, I'm gonna go get ready for tomorrow now. See most if not all of you tomorrow and have a good night. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. lol -Ria

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